I deserve...

What I believe I deserve:

I deserve someone whose face lights up EVERY time I walk into the room.
I deserve someone who can't wait for me to wake up in the morning to see what I have to say.
I deserve someone who WANTS to spend all their free time with me or even no free time just always wants to be with me but will give me my space when I need it.
I deserve someone who will "get me" understand me who knows what it means when my mood changes or if I'm quiet.
I deserve someone who wants to protect me.
I deserve someone who cares.
I deserve someone who will get jealous but not violent about it.
I deserve someone who wants to cuddle.
I deserve someone who wants to just be in the same room with me even if we're not doing something together.
I deserve to be able to trust that someone and they trust me NO questions asked.
I deserve someone who is able to say no to me and my impulsiveness but knows when it's OK to give in.
I deserve to be loved.
I deserve to be with someone who not only allows me to be who I am but will challenge me to be a better me.
I deserve someone who has my back and supports all my dreams and wishes.
I deserve to be happy.

Sadness

I think I'm going to stop talking about my relationships. It's been a very long time since I have even looked at this thing let alone write on it.
I've moved on from the last asshole, yeah I said asshole. As usual took advantage blah blah blah. It's beyond bad, not as bad as being beaten but still close.
Yeah I'm with someone new and currently I am happy. I get to see how much of a crappy mother I am. He has two kids from a previous marriage. And though they are my world and I love them dearly and would throw myself in front of danger before I would allow anything to happen to them I know that I am as close as I can get with out having that piece of giving birth to them. I want that, I want that with them though that's never possible. But I want more than anything in this world to have a baby.
I just don't feel that I deserve it. I've made so many bad decisions in my life and I'm already almost 30.
I feel that everyone would just be better off if I just wasn't in their lives. Everyone I know I feel like all I do is hurt them by being around. I'm constantly feeling like a failure.

All I want is to be loved.

Friends, Cars, and Work

I've been in Arkansas now for little over a year and a half.

We moved into a big beautiful townhouse, and have two pets.
Indy a 2 yr old mix half chiuaua and half terrier, and

Rocky a 1 yr old orange tabby cat.

I've made some really great friends and have really enjoyed having this personal time with Feroz.

Just the two of us, both working like crazy, seeing each other whenever we can.

It's hectic but we're doing good.

I've met another kindred spirit.

Sharon.

I'm proud to say that I do have a handful of people in my life whom have been there for me for many years and are definitely life long friends.

I can now add Sharon and her family to that group.

In heart beat anyone of them would give me their shirt off their back if I asked, and have hardly anything but give me twice of that, I mean they I some really wonderful people.

Not really the kind of people one might think I would associate with, but I think that's why it works.

Sharon is old enough to not play silly games with me.

I can trust in the fact that she's not going to get two faced and stab me in the back.

She will always be there for me and I'd hate to ever lose that.

Unfortunately I know some day I will be apart from it, not lose it just be distant from it.

I love to travel, I love to live in different places, and I'll end up moving away at some point, but Sharon wont leave Arkansas area.

But that's life and we'll always be family.

Bought my very first car.

a Lexus IS 300!

Don't worry I still have my beautiful Pontiac.

Feroz's Mazda was always in and out of the shop so I went car shopping and found the car he wanted, great price and well it's now ours!

So I'm now working for a Lighting Place doing Interior Design, which is fun, and pays a lot more than Dillard's was so that's good.

I just want to be utilizing my education.

Any body have any ideas??

Allergies SUCK!

The Arkansas allergies FINALLY caught up for me.
In DE they told me DE was the worst for allergies...now in AR they say AR the worst.
I don't really care who's the worst I just want to be able to go out side and breath.
I love being outside and when I can't enjoy it sucks.
A lot of people keep saying that they get a shot every month or something.
HA yeah right me? get a shot every month?
I can't even stand for them to take my blood for test.
Egh chills up and down my back, blagh.

So I got really sick.
Ended up having to leave work early on the second night of inventory.
I wasn't happy nor was work but what could I do.
now this was just the beginning if my blaghness right now.
I sent a text message to my "friend" telling her I was sick and I went home early.
I went home and immediately began throwing up.
(this was due to a co-worker telling me I should drink some vinegar mixed with some kind of juice...suppose to clear everything up)
Well I was so miserable I was willing to try anything.
So I'm throwing up, coughing back and forth all night, like no sleep what so ever.
Meanwhile not even thinking about that my text message to my "friend" did or did not go through.
So come the next morning all I can fathom was I needed to go to the DR.
So I get Feroz up and ask him to take me.
Meanwhile, at the bat cave, sorry just kidding little humor...well my "friend" is calling, and I just can't answer so I'm trying to text and tell her I'm going to the Dr.
Though I was suppose to watch her son that day, like I do on my days off.
Well I can't talk for pain is really bad and so I finally let her now what's sort of going on.
At which point she's upset.
Cause now she has to call out of work to watch her son.
So I'm felling not only hard to breath can swallow and I'm more concerned about fucking up her life.
I felt so guilty for being sick.
I was miserable on top of miserable.
Couldn't fix anything, very helpless.
So for the next 3-4 days I'm home sleeping as much as I can taking my 4 meds I was prescribed and just being very week.
Also wondering why my "friend" was not acting in which fashion I expected her to act they way I would have done for her if she was sick.
So needless to say we were both upset.
Even now I can't breath out of nose and it's like a week later, but I'm being made to feel awful for becoming sick.
I mean god forbid I get sick.
So I finally go back to work, I don't want to, but I've got to try and get back into that swing of things.
Feeling still shitty I go.
I run into this "friend" and she says hi, I respond, though it is not heard, as we all know I tend to mumble. I continue to go where I was going, assuming that she would walk with me. But was a wrong, not only did she not hear me respond she was not going the way I was going. Though all she had to say was I'm going this way and I would have walked with her. So far none of my actions are anything but normal. (according to me)
So she says whatever and walks the other way, I come around and ask if that was for me and than I'm continued to be told that I had ignored her.
I didn't have time to get into it, and I didn't want to make a scene on the sales floor.
So I continued on with my business, needless to say I had been spoken too by my manager about leaving my store, etc... so I was trying to be quick.
I mean this "friend" doesn't seem to realize that I always look for some excuse to come into her neck of the woods.
So I get back to my area and I call her to ask what was up.
And I was told that she was busy, i e didn't want to talk to me.
I explained that I hadn't thought I had acted any differently than normal and asked what was up. ( but I really think the whole thing accrued because she was mad at me for making her call in to work to watch her son and I was still mad for her not living up to my expectations)
So she continued with that she doesn't know anything because she hadn't talked to me lately, which I responded with I've been sick, and that was hit with I've used that excuse before.
Now I'm sorry but I'm feeling like crap already and than someone who is suppose to be my friend basically thows in my face that I'm full of shit, well my blood started to boil. I continued with some colorful language and hung up the phone.
So let's recap for a moment, if I didn't feel like shit before I sure as hell did now.
I located and spoke to a trusted friend and colleague and told him the story.
He stopped before I even got to the incident of the day and pointed out wither I was knew or not I was subconsciously made at her. OK I'll go with that, and than he advised me to get a card.
So I did and I apologized for my actions.
I felt bad.
Needless to say my "friend" is not speaking to me.

I just want to be heard.
I've gave and gave and gave and I get sick and it's my fault.
I'm sorry that she's basically a single mom.
I'm sorry she has had to rely on others to watch her child.
I'm sorry that I had high expectations.
I watched her child basically every day off I had, and you know what I'd do it again in a heart beat because THAT's what friends do for one another, they help each other.
I'm sorry that I got sick.

I'm just tired people getting mad at me over things I can NOT control.
Just tired.

Long Time....

Well it's been a long time since I wrote in this...not sure if anyone looks at this.
Any way so Still living in Arkansas.
Still working for Dillard's and not very happy.
Lot's of effort and hours and little recognition.
Seem to always get caught with my hand in the cookie jar, if you know what I'm saying.
However I have made a lot of good friends while working there.
Just constantly frustrated because I want to put my education to use.
Don't seem to be making the greatest impression.
Eh, life goes on right.

Things with Feroz are still good.
We recently went with the folks and family to Disney World, Feroz's first trip there ever.
So that was a lot of fun.
It's always fabulous for us to be able to show new people our version of Orlando.
He got tired a lot with all the walking, though I warned him!
So that was fabulous if anyone wants to see the pics than just ask me I'll send them.
I posted only about 300-400 of the 800 or so taken.
Yes I am a picture freak!
(But we knew that already)

We have a puppy name Indy that we got from the Humane Society back in Feb.
And than we recently got Indy a pet because she wanted one....so we got her a kitten and his name is Rocky.
And he is definitely Indy's pet, too funny.
He follows her around all the time like "hey, what's going on, what we doing now"
And it's better for us now cause she has company now and she isn't as hyper as she use to be which is nice.

So as usual I'll try and be better about this Blog.
Hopefully more soon.

Some Photos

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Welcome to ARKANSAS! 

Ar-KANSAS??!?!?!?!

Ok, so here I am in good old Arkansas...
It is so Darn HOT here I can't believe it, you walk outside and BAM! You're in a pool of sweat!
When we first got here it was 115 DEGREES!!
Now it's COOLED down to low to high 90's!!
And it apparent that we are in the Bible Belt.
Can't tell you how many signs I see about "Jesus love you" and different versus of the bible.
My apartment is really nice, we have a two bedroom two bath, which is still not enough space for my SHOES!! hehehe
But our landlord is really laid back and we have a pool right outside our door.
Oh and for those who don't know already when I say we I mean Feroz and I, and also for those of you who don't know we're ENGAGED!! Yippe!
He took me out to dinner on the 3rd of July and when we got back I went to get out and he's like hold on let me get the door so he came around opened the door got down on one knee and PROPOSED!! It was so sweet. I am so happy!
So I'm engaged, in Arkansas, and trying to find a job.
I have an interview coming up that seems promising so keep your fingers crossed.
Much love to all.
Laters.

Arkansas or Bust?

I'm moving to ARKANSAS!!!
Yeah I know what the heck is out there?
Well the man I love so very much has moved there to help out his Uncle.
So here I come Arkansas.
We found a 2 bedroom, 2 full bath apartment for only $490/month!!!
I know amazing right?
The cost of living is so low.
So Feroz comes the 27th and than we leave the 17th of July.
Driving my car 22 hours!!
So that's the update for now.
Hope all is well with everyone.
Take Care.

GRADUATION

Well it's finally here!
I'm Graduating Friday!
I thought this day would NEVER come.
Already my friend Karima is in town which got me in the mode of I don't care any more I'm graduating...senior slide and all.
Dave and Erin arrive tomorrow and than dah dah DAH! GRADUATION!
I'm excitid, totally nervous right now because I still have one final to complete.
And of course the fear of the unknown, what's going to happen next?
Well let's all stay tuned to see what happens.

Life in the Fast Lane

This new year is starting to look up.
Much better than last year.
All moved into my new apartment but still nothing on the walls.
All in all though I have enough and things are coming together nicely.

School is going well.
I'm constantly there so maybe just being at school will allow all the info to seep into my brain.
So far the grades I'm getting are ok but they could be better.
I so badly want to get on the dean's list this semester.
Feroz (Fair-rose), my new man, has really been helping out a lot with school.
He helped me get an A- in Accounting which I had previously failed, so that's good.
He says his claim to fame is "chinese tutoring", i.e. Every time I lose focus he taps my arm with a pen until I focus again, and as I'm writing that it sounds so much worse than it actually is. And he only really did it once or twice.
Any who, so things are well with him.
I'm not realy sure what to say about him other than what I've said already, that he makes me happy. And only time will tell, but I guess I can also say that I like the ME that I am with him. Acknowledeging and disposing of all the unflatery trates that I had but also keeping the unique ones that make me, ME.
Not to say that we don't have our issues, but they're interesting issues and they keep the realationship challenging, never a dull moment.

I'm finally graduating in May...
still can't believe it.
Hasn't hit yet.
I'm totally excited many of you already have made plans to be here for it and I love you all for that.
It's definitly gift enough for me to just have everyone I care about by my side.
I couldn't be more happier.

Alright so I think that's all the updates for now.
Always stay tuned.

Happy New Year ~ 2006

Well here it is, the new year.
And how long will it take all of us to get use writting '06?

I'm not sure exactly what I will accomplish this year.
But I do know that I'm going to Graduate on May 5th,
I'm going to start my masters and Goldey,
and that will take me well into the following year.

I always try to better myself
so I'm not going to make promises to myself that I cannot keep.
All in all I'm just going to be true to myself.
Always and Forever.

Holidays

Can I just say, I really did not get into the holiday season as much as normal this year.
I don't know maybe cause I'm still in the fire mode, but it just didn't hit me like normal.
Who knows, and I'm not trying to down anyone or anything I just didn't get into as much as usual.

I am in a new realationship though.
And that makes me extreamly happy.
He's kind, treats me like a princess, but isn't a pansy, and really truely cares about me.
And he fights for me, which is always worth while.
All in all I'm very happy.
But only time will tell anything, we shall see where this goes.

So I made out like a bandit this year.
Got a pair of Manolo Blahniks, a coach purse, clothes, some really nice accesories for my apartment. Everything was wonderfull, and usefull.
Dave and Erin sent me a beautiful necklace with an "albino turqoze" I think is what we determined, in a silver setting.
Again, everything was well recieved and lovely.

I do hope that everyone elses holidays went well and that everyone has a happy new year.
Take care and I'll update again when I can.

New Place...Again

So I'm moved into my new apartment.
I've got most things replaced already, basically the large items.
Like a couch, dining table, coffee table, tv stand, bed, and desk.
Got a new computer also, so that's been fun playing with.
But I'm still tried, very tired of the whole situation.
And depressed, stil in that can't believe this has happened to me stage.

But other than that I'm ok, got a new person in my life.
He's so wonderfull, and makes me so very happy.
But I'll talk more about him at a later time.
Or feel free to ask me ourself about him.
Any who, That's all for now.
Laters All.

FIRE

Yes I said FIRE!
My porch caught fire Saturday night.
Very long story.
I'm ok, no one was hurt, but don't know what can be saved.
Have not been allowed back in my apartment yet.
Until they get some support to the structual damage.
Pray for me.
Still in WOW Holy Shit mood.
Update more later.

My Poor CAR!

So my mom and I are driving back to the house from dinner.
She's driving my car.
We're on this road where it drops down to 25 mph.
All of a sudden this ass whip rams us out of no where in the back.
We both hit our heads against the head rest.
My Mom's glasses go flying.
I so expect to get out of my car and find the trunk in my back seat.
fortunately the only damage is the bumper, the plexie glass shattered.
But my mom pulls over thinking that the person ill pull over too.
And the drive off.
What assholes!
So my beautiful car, of only 4 months new, is damaged.
I'm so upset.
I'm so pissed.
So sucks.
What a wonderful month this is turning out to be.

How a Guy should be...

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who calls you back when you hang up on him. Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.... Wait for the boy who pursues you, who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on and insists on holding you around the waist. The one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you... The one who turns to his friends and says "thats her" ~ Anon

Love. Like. Lust. Learn.

The four pillars of a long lasting (and happy) relationship.

Love. The foundation of every relationship. It occurs when you care about someone. Interestingly, you can love someone without even liking them. Key words are compassion, trust, respect.

Like. To like someone means enjoying spending time with that person. Being friends. Key words are laughter, fun, interest.

Lust. Don't underestimate the importance of this one. Wanting to hold your partner, to kiss them, to make love. If the sizzle is gone, the relationship loses intensity. Finding each other attractive is vital for longevity.

Learn. Partners must inspire each other. Impress each other. Push each other to new places. Challenge and motivate your partner, learn from them, and teach them.

More Pain

How do you move on after giving all of yourself to someone for two and a half years?
How do you erase the memories?
How do you love again?
How do you breath?
I believe that these are all age old questions.
My heart will go on as they say but right now...it's all crap.

Pain

So I'm still hurty from my foot.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
Do I see a specialist and have them tell me exactly what my regular doc would tell me?
I hurt a lot though, and it's way past living with it.
When I threw my knee caps out of alignment in high school they said the only way to fix them would be surgery. So I was like I'll live with it.
But now they're 10 times worst and I fear having to go under the knife...but what would that solve?
I guess that's the ultimate question.

Gimp gimp GIMP!!!

Ok so I am a gimp at the moment.
My right foot is in an aircast!
We think that it was a combination of things,
Going from sneakers to high heels to flip flops(aka Foot Thongs)
and than not being active for a long long LONG time,
going and running with my girls and dancing with them, etc...
So I went into the good old walk in clinic last night.
Waited almost 2 hours,
Than got an air cast.
So I'm suppose to stay off it as much as possible for 3 days.
We'll see how long that last.
For me I don't what's worse staying off my feet or not being able to talk!
Any way Laters ALL!

Year of the WHAT?!

You Were Actually Born Under: THE YEAR of the ROOSTER!

Resourceful and practical, you are a quick thinker.You are very observant - and it's hard to get anything past you!A total perfectionist, you are especially picky about looking your best.You're a big dreamer - such a big dreamer that reality can disappoint you.You are most compatible with an Ox or Snake.

You Should Have Been Born Under: THE YEAR of the RABBIT!

Delicate, timid, and attractive - sometimes you really do act like a bunny.You're very compassionate and protective of those you love, sometimes too protective.Your home is really your castle, and you make sure your home is comfortable and well furnished.You don't like to argue - and you prefer a quiet, peaceful life.You are most compatible with a Goat or a Pig.

What Year Were You Born Under?

I like this description...

"What characterizes a close, meaningful relationship?"

(1) Friends spend time together, almost every day.
(I don't think this necessarily means in person)

(2) They interact freely, easily, and honestly.
They feel safe enough to "be themselves,"
sharing their private feelings and experiences,
both their successes and their failures.

(3) To last, both must get more satisfaction than hassle from the relationship.
Both must feel they are getting a fair deal. Both must strive to make the other happy.

(4) There is a code of ethics between friends based on loyalty and trust. Friends are tolerant of and devoted to each other; they are fair, emotionally supportive, and willing to help whenever needed."

"Good advice is to take your time making a friend. It takes, on average, 3 years to become "best friends."

Tired

I'm not sure why I'm even writing in this right now. I'm WAY too tired to even think straight, so pardon if any of this doesn't make a lick of sense.
My girls had their first game of the season tonight. Ok for a first game, though many frustrations, many people not listening to me or each other. But oh well right. I guess I'm use to folks not listening to me. Any thing I say just goes in one ear and out the other.
Justin came up for about 24 hours and proceeded to forget his phone so I had to mail it to him express mail, which cost probably as much as the phone it self.
But most importantly I good friend of mine is sad and I can't fix it. I really hate not being able to fix something. But how to you console someone who was greatly altered by the 9/11 events and will always remember with great vividness what occurred. I can't even imagine.
I'm so tired.
Tired of so much around me.
Just trying to clean up my life.
Things are not so bad in my life, there are plenty of people that I know personally who have had worst or having worst. And I just remind myself when every think my life is bad, that it could always be worst.
Wont the winter snow start falling yet?

Comments

I've noticed that a fellow Blog has been commenting that they don't receive any comments to their entries.
Well I argue that maybe if the posted comments to others than they would receive comments back.
I also argue that isn't the point of these blogs is for people to be able to check in see what's going on in your life and than go about their day?
I mean the way society is today is that EVERYONE is in a hurry!
Who has time to sit down and write to someone or comment on a blog or do anything but Eat, Sleep, and Work?
I know there has to be at least one or two people out there that reads this, and though it would be nice to get some verification that it is being read, I look at this more being therapeutic for me more than anything.
Though the computer cannot respond to me and give me advice, sometimes is just helps to put things into words.
So I again, I will offer this to my fellow blog. If you comment on mine I will comment on yours.


"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive."~ Anais Nin

New Place

Well I am finally FREE!!
I have new BEAUTIFUL place all to myself.
I'm totally psyched.
I really feel like I'm finally getting back to ME.
The Me that I thought I lost such a long time ago.
I guess I'm just going through and removing all the bad things in my life.
Got rid of the roommates who were taking advantage of me and my families kindness.
And I've made the most important decision to get my Masters in Managment!!
Yeah, more school for me!
But anyone, things are going really well right now.
Got a great new cheerleading season started, things going really well.
Classes have started and things are going well there too.
And work is going good too.
So all in all life is good at the moment, let's see how long this natural high goes for.

So on a bit of a sadder note. (I know Ironic)
My "Brother" Mark has headed off to the Air Force.
He's in Texas right now = Boot Camp.
Please keep him in your prayers I know I will.

Ok so that's enough updating for me.
Laters

Friends?

Am I such a horrible person?
Am I that difficult to talk too?
Am I crazy to think that I am a good friend?
Am I just plain crazy?

I give and I give and I give and once, just once I'd like to have something returned.
Anything, some kind of acknowledgement that says "hey, you're important to me!"
Can't I be important to someone?

What is a friend?
I think that my definition is VERY different than what other's define it as.
I think a friend remembers not only important things but the little things.
I think a friend is someone who calls you, not all the time but when silly little things happen, or big things.
I think a friend is someone who treats you and your things with respect.
Respect works both ways, you've got to give it in order to have it.
But how can you give it if you don't receive it?
I think a friend likes you just the way you are and wouldn't want to change you in any way.
I KNOW that I am a good friend, but why can't I find that in return?
Maybe I put to much into it.
But don't I deserve a good friend?
Don't I deserve something good in my life?
Friends = Love ; Love yourself, Love each other.

Road Trip

Well the Road Trip is over!
Justin and I helped our friends drive their cars all the way to New Mexico!
Crazy? Yes.
Insane? Yes.
But it was wicked fun.
And I think our friendship is that much more stronger.
Hey anyone who can survivor over 40 hrs. in a car with me is definitely worth keeping around.
Any way, we went out we flew home, and now they're actually in New Mexico.
I don't know what to do.
But in the same breath I'm excited for them.
Got to be pretty amazing starting their lives together as husband and wife.
Good Luck Erin and Dave.
I love you guys!

Why?

Why do I even bother writing in this blog.
No one seems to read it.
I guess people really aren't that interested in what is going on with me.
I could probably fall of the face of the earth and no one would care.
Hum....
Well any way, I'm working working working, going to class, not getting much sleep...oh yeah and my AC is broken.
So that's the update I know so exciting.
Laters.

New Mexico

Well my best friends are moving to New Mexico!
And Justin and I are going to help drive them out there!
Are we insane? Yes I think we are.
But I'm looking forward to it.
I think it will really test all of our friendships, and I hope and believe that it will make all of us stronger.
So this will occur beganing of July.
Maybe we'll also get to celebrate Erin and my Birthdays.
July 2nd and July 15th for Erin.
More to follow.

Stuff

So not much really happening right now.
Taking my summer class.
Got cheer tryouts this week.
Missing lot's of people, probably more than they're missing me but oh well.
And other than that not much.
Just a little bored right now so just felt like updating this.
Maybe some excitement will happen in my life soon.
Laters.

Missing Friends

Ok so how lame am I?
I had such a good time last weekend.
Not just with Dave & Erin but with everyone.
I made new friends.
Hung out with old ones.
And now I'm sad.
I miss everyone, especially Dave & Erin.
I forgot how much fun it was just to be around all of those people that were there.
Or I didn't forget i just put it all aside so I wouldn't be sad.
It sucks not having any of my GOOD friends in Delaware.
People always say that you lose touch with your friends from high school and you make new friends, but I think it's the opposite for me. I've stayed in good contact with a lot of my high school friends.
And on top of all that I'm bursting to talk to Dave & Erin to see how their honeymoon was, how Dave's phone interview went, and all in all just to be able to talk to them or see them online.
Eh, the weekend will be here soon enough though, and everything will go back to normal, but I don't necessarily want to all go back to normal. Why did I not stay in Mass for college? Than maybe I'd be done by now. Oh well life is life.
Any ways, staying busy when I can also trying to make the most of my summer cause this is my LAST Summer before I graduate. Isn't that scary?! I hope that my friends can make it to my graduation. It would be nice to have everyone in one place. I don't think I could ask for a better gift than to have all my friends together in one place for a few days, even one day for that matter. For those of you reading, and you know who you are, can this happen? I don't want any gifts I just want all my friends at my graduation. May 5th 2006, so that would include the following states: Massachusetts, District of Columbia, New Mexico, Alabama, Connecticut, New York or Colorado or California(depending on where the bastard is), Florida, and Delaware.
Ok so I think I've ranted enough.
Stay tuned for my interesting fabulous life!!

Dave & Erin's Wedding!!

Finally!
They did it!
It's over!
And now they're in Florida on their Honeymoon.

The wedding was fabulous.
Got in about noon on Friday.
Justin was whisked off to get his Tux and I was beckoned by the Bride.
I got to spend some time with my best friend before things got crazy.
Than we had the rehearsal and dinner which again was fabulous.
We got a little bit of sleep before we started the circus on Saturday.

I meet the bridal party at the Salon, with having short hair I was the only one who didn't need an up do.
Than headed back to the hotel to get ready.
We were at the church at noon but the bride didn't get there until 1.
We got the bride dressed and than hung outside the church until it was time to go in.
I thought I smiled when I walked down but looking at photos I wasn't smiling.
The service was lovely.

Than off to the reception.
Lot's of photos.
Lot's of dancing.
Loads of fun.

Than of course crying, but good crying.
We finally got to sleep around midnight.

All in all it was a good weekend.
I hope my friends are having fun on their honeymoon.

So Mr and Mrs. Kay where official on May 14th 2005

Count Down

Well Dave and Erin's wedding is next weekend!!
This past week I went up to Mass to help Erin pick out clothes for her honeymoon.
I think we got her some really nice things.
I also got to see my 'brother' Mark so that was good.
All in all it was a fabulous trip.
I even convinced Mark to come back with me so he was here for the weekend.
So at this point there are 5 days before D-DAY!!
I can't imagine what's going through Dave and Erin's mind this week.
I wish I could ease anything for them.
Have to get through this weekend, than don't even get me started for when they move to NEW MEXICO!!
That's a story in it of itself, and basically saying I don't want them to go so far away but life takes us all in different directions. But at least I have the confidence in knowing that we we all be friends for a long time.

Wendy Moira Angela Darling...

...Does anyone but me know the significance of this name???
Why is it that I am the ONLY person who knows that it's the full name of Wendy from Peter Pan?
Any way, it's also the name of our new puppy.
My dad said that he didn't want to wait as long as we did the last time before getting a new puppy. So we went to this breeder yesterday. (thinking that we were going to pick a pup from a litter that wouldn't be ready to go home until June) but we ended up falling in love with one of the puppies that could go home than.
So Wendy cam home with us. Mind you she peed on me, and threw up on me twice in the car. I think we've bonded enough. :-)
Alright so smiles are back and we still love Lexy very much, She is sorely missed, but I know that she would be happy to know that we have made a happy home for a friend.
A new era has begun.

Passover

Well I just got back from spending Passover with my bubbe and family. It was a lovely Seder and good to see people I haven't seen for almost 7-12years. I got to see my cousin Mary and Rob, my Great Uncle Iz(and his sister Gertie), My Uncle Allen and Aunt Arlene, Arlene's son Steven and daughter Jessica, who's married to another Steven(don't ask me for his last name, something Italian) and their daughter my cousin Sarah who's like 3 I think. I have such a small family as it is so it's nice to see my extended family that I do have.

Also on top of all that I got to bond with my Bubbe. More than we've ever bonded before. Amazing, I'm 23 years old and yet I'm constantly finding out new things about my family. I love my bubbe so much. Even though she's mashugana!

All in all a very good weekend.
Next weekend is Dad's Birthday and than after that is MOTHER's Day!
Stay tuned.

Rest In Peace

We had to put down our family dog on Saturday.
I wasn't there for it but I think it may have been better that way.
So that I can keep nice memories of her.
Lexy was almost 12 years old, and a beautiful Golden Retriever.
She chose me.
When we went to pick out our dog, Lexy was the only one who ran away from her siblings to play with me.
But now she's out of her pain.
Much Love to you Lexy.
I love you and miss you.
Rest In Peace.

Two Years

Ok so not EVERY anniversary can be fabulous, but I think as long as you make it fabulous it is fabulous, right? (ie Justin, even though he requested it off, got called in to work any way on our anniversary) But at least we knew ahead of time so we spent Saturday celebrating our anniversary.

As we had already planned to do, we ordered not bad but not great Chinese food. We had a smorgest borg. It was great. We watched Elton John's concert that Justin had taped just for this occasion off of when he performed at Rocket City Music Hall. And he talked me into watching Stargate, which was fine but now I want to see the first show from the TV episodes...anybody got it?!

We than tried ordering Papa John's for dinner. NEVER ORDER FROM PAPA JOHN'S PIZZA!!! I think we are just doomed to have things go wrong for our anniversary. We ordered and they came, late, and left. It's a very long story but it has to do with Justin got a new phone number YESTERDAY and forgot to change it in the online info for papa john's. So long story short when we called, they blamed us!! So we were like forget it we don't want anything from you. And on top of it at this point Justin had to go to work. (ie night audit)

Maybe next year will be better.
And an update for people like Erin...No, still no ring.
(And I can get away with saying that because he never reads this.)

Alright so off to finish studying for an exam for tomorrow, have a paper due Wednesday, and oh what else can we add to my stress levels???!!!

Florida, Anniversaries, and Weddings... Oh MY!

Just got back from Florida and trust me I want to be back. It couldn't have been better weather. The whole week was lovely, not to hot, not to cold. It only rained one night like after 6pm and it didn't even effect anything we were doing. Just over all a very fabulous trip.
I went with my folks and that's it so it was nice to have them all to myself. It was a very laid back trip and the nice thing, other than the weather, was that it wasn't very crowded either. Walked on to a lot of rides.

Next weekend will be my 2 year anniversary! Wow, 2 years already. Yet it seems like so much longer.

Our best friends' wedding is coming up. So we're getting ready for that, getting into that mode of making sure everything we need to bring we've got and that Dave and Erin have an amazing special day. I hope that there are no complications for them. (Though rain maybe ok, sense it is lucky) I guess I just hope everything goes smoothly for them. They deserve all the happiness in the world. I'm so very happy for them.

and on a side, sad, note there is no progress reports about Rose. Things are the same but I will post things as they come. Please keep her and her family in your prayers and in your hearts.
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Rose

Last Saturday night the 22nd of March there was a car accident. Two boys died and one girl was rushed to the hospital. The girl is Rose and her father, David, is a friend of mine.
They had her in an induced coma and things were 50/50.
But today an amazing things happened.
Rose woke up.
Her father went in to see her and the nurse told her to squeeze her father's hand and she did. She did it twice and wiggled her toes.
Than she opened her eyes and looked at her father.

So this is good because it shows that she's not brain dead.

Cheerleading competition

Competition 2005

We brought home a second place trophy. I'm very proud of my girls! Go TIGERS! Go A.I.!

First Post

Finally got myself a blogger.

Aren't we all excited.

I'll try to keep this updated as much as possible.

Please stay tuned.